Category Archives: Belief/Faith

About Knowing Thyself

Did the idea of knowing who you really are ever crossed your mind? And if Yes, what exactly do you look for? Is it about what you think you are or about what others think of you ? Who defines you? Is it you? your family? your colleagues? your friends? or is it your whole society?

Well,  apparently “Knowing Thyself” is a decision only taken by those who seek Truth. In other words, it is a quest for what is Authentic.

Authentic, Timeless, and Real.

I personally took this decision 2 years ago and I’m currently in the middle of the road. But going back in time, when I embarked on this journey, I didn’t think about getting prepared for it. Getting Prepared wasn’t even on my mind!  Naive was I when I thought that going through such an experience would be about constant joy and enlightenment…

Of course you get to experience unique moments of joy that will always remain engraved in your memory, and of course you get to experience delightful moments of enlightenment that keep changing the routes leading to your chosen Path.

Yet the experience is much more complex and intense. Because there will be moments when you’ll feel you’re loosing yourself…there will be moments when you’ll have to let go off the scenarios that no longer serve you..there will be moments when you will have to put all the masks off and deal with the world with your naked truth…there will be moments of vulnerability which you will have to accept and deal with…there will be moments of ferocious war between what you think you are and what you truly are…

It is a risky decision to take, a very brave and courageous one. And only those who breath Truthfulness will rise above and conquer. I don’t mean to scare anyone who’s considering having the experience. Actually it is the one and only experience that will make you literally feel “ALIVE”, otherwise you continue leading  the life of unconscious dormant fellow men. And that my friend is a life half lived, if not lived at all…

But what I would really invite you to do is to think about it in a panoramic view and ask yourself a question:

What does it really take to Know my Authentic Self? 

After giving it a deep serious thought and in case your answer is “Whatever it takes…”, then Welcome to the greater experience of your life 🙂


A Curse called Planning

Okay..it’s time for me now to admit some facts about the role of planning in my life:

Don’t get it wrong, I always loved planning stuff! Taking the time to reflect about something, putting ideas into a logical sequence, prioritizing, connecting the dots. One of the mind’s games that I really enjoy doing…but the story doesn’t end here.

I remember once in a job interview, an executive manager asked me the traditional question: What do you think your best skills are? And with a confident smile I answered: Planning. “Planning on its own is not a positive skill, unless it is translated into feasible effective actions.” That was his answer. And Reddish was the color of my face.

All goes well in the planning process (for me), but when it starts hitting the scheduling and action plan phases, my enthusiasm hits the ground! So the result is either starting acting upon the plan for a day, 2, and even a week, OR settling with watching my plan hanged on the wall just like a piece of art..and guess what with time passing by, you eventually don’t notice it anymore.

So it goes like that: Plans as long as they are written on a piece of paper look appealing. Something happens afterwards, when these written ideas need to be manifested! I always wondered about the reasons: lack of discipline, lack of belief, laziness, procrastination…although these ones seem to be more of symptoms rather than deep and true justifications.

The dilemma goes further when I start to feel trapped by my plans. I start to hate them, they just make me feel imprisoned and suck all the air out of the room. This strong feeling of being chained to whatever commitment does something to me. And achieving the plan (that I chose  for my own growth) turns out to be a struggle…


Awaken


The Battles Within

If you are tired of fighting the problems that keep showing up in your life, struggling with people or circumstances..if you feel like everything you wanted is taking a different path than yours and you became stuck in a place you don’t like..if you think you’re trying your best to do the right thing and do things right yet you still hit the wall..if you started to believe that everything got out of control and that life is a bitch.. You have just fallen in the deep down hole made by your worst enemy: YOURSELF

Of course you are wondering how come? you cannot be fighting against yourself? it doesn’t make sense..it’s easier and simpler to believe that people are fighting against you, circumstances as well, or any other external factor whatever it might be. But the hard truth is: We create the battles in our minds, we distribute the roles of the play, we act accordingly until we get so drained by the play’s events that we forget it was of our own mind creation..

The game stars within..here..in our minds. By nature, we tend to be happy and joyful..but with fear showing up on the surface, we become defensive and tend to protect this nature .Unconsciously, by this act of protection, we allowed fear to penetrate our hearts. It’s this fear that creates all the battles, all the fights, all the struggles. We are afraid to lose ourselves, our hopes, our dreams, our happiness. And the more we let the fear take over the steering wheel, the more our battles get bigger, stronger, harder, and tougher.

So start by admitting that YOU are your first and single battle. Then work on yourself by aligning your nature with your desires. In other words, decide upon what you want to do with your life and believe you can do it. When you believe, it becomes easy to create the habits, the tasks, and the life style that will lead you there. A burning desire and a strong belief will keep you up there defeating your inner battles against Fear and freeing yourself from its chains.

In life, you don’t get the chance to play again . It’s a one time shot! and you know within yourself that it’s not worth all these struggles.

Life is actually simple and always calls for us to enjoy its company..So don’t be fool and reject the invitation!


When Death told me a Secret

Today while driving, I suddenly was haunted by the thought of death…and for the first time in my life it didn’t creep me out! Actually I found myself in ease with it, accepting it, with no regrets: I can die right here right now!

Honestly I used to have a bad relationship with the idea of Death but with time I learned to manage it. And by managing I only mean eliminating the fear…However I still had the conviction that it’d be cooler if I had the chance to live more coz I just didn’t fulfill my dharma yet! (Which is something I know a little about) but anyway that was my reason and maybe it was nothing more than a pretext…

Today I didn’t reject the idea of death or felt like it’d be better to postpone it. Today I thought “well it’s ok to die now”. I simply knew I’ll be in a better place!!  (guess what? I never used to like this specific statement which we always repeat to console others on death occasions, since I wasn’t able to perceive it and believe in it)

What is more ambiguous is that I know I was not an angel and I did what I consider as bad stuff, yet that didn’t stop me from fully embracing death… The thought of meeting God, the creator, the one who took care of me during all this time, who gave me things, who felt my pain and helped me move forward during hard times, the one who created this universe for me, the sun, the moon, the sky, the trees.. the one who offered me everything I had, I have and will ever have.

The question is: How come I was afraid of such an idea? How come I’ve been rejecting it?

Nonsense!

I realized this: Only with death, I will belong. Death will provide me with all what I’ve been hungry for:  Peace. In this place where we’re supposed to go after dying, I will be on top of everything. I will be detached from everything yet happy and serene. I will be free of my egoistic self. I will be me, the real me, with no masks, and no efforts to become someone else for the sake of others. Death will give my soul what it has been longing for since day one on Earth.  And looking forward to it makes complete sense. Not by committing suicide of course! I’m not talking here about conscience, values, dos and don’ts..I’m just reflecting about the only TRUE and REAL thing in our existence.

And just like a bride who gets ready for the most important day of her life,  we shall get ready to welcome Death too. Yes! It’s another phase in our lives that we shall prepare ourselves for. And just like the pre-wedding phase, we will experience moments of sadness, happiness, fear, serenity,frustration, satisfaction, losses, and gains… But on the d-day we will realize how much it was worth getting ready for it 🙂


The Inner Dilemma

It’s been a while now since I’m trying to live up with an enormous heavy mental conflict.

The question started with a simple “Why”..but the answer was not that simple.

I love life, and I know a lot of people that do, although they pretend to despise it. But it’s obvious they don’t, because simply they still want the best of it, they strive for its instantaneous pleasures, they fight for its erroneous delights. And when the idea of death is spoken, they don’t warmly welcome it.

So We Love Life, we try our best to reach our aspirations and feel content. And during this journey, we cry, we fail, we fear, we get so anxious and so attached to our desires, we even become obsessed with our wants and struggle with our own demons..On the other hand, we have admitted long ago that there is a source, a source that created us from nothing, took care of us, granted us uncountable blessings,  and we know that we shall return to this source again. We KNOW that! we are not doubting it..we are not giving it a second thought..we are not denying it (supposedly)..we agreed to believe in it…

And here comes the big question mark: By trusting in such a belief, logically, we should not be suffering from the disease of life attachments.  I’m not saying we should hate life, but what I’m pointing at is that we should not get that much attached to it to a point that we allow feelings of eternal  fear and anxiety to penetrate our hearts. We shouldn’t be forgetting that whatever we are doing today won’t last forever. We should always remember that we were born on Earth for a reason and that this Source is always there looking upon us. We are not alone. We will never be.

So How come we know, and by knowing I mean trusting and believing..how come we know this truth as a fact and still act as if we don’t know it? How come we ignore it? How come we don’t see it?

I wonder how can we reach the balance, the balance between our attachment to life and our knowing of its true reality. It’s only then when we can reach a true and deep sense of happiness and inner peace. Those cannot be reached unless we are aligned with the authenticity of life.

“If you knew who walked beside you at all times, on the path that you have chosen, you could never experience fear or doubt again.”
— Wayne W. Dyer


Save a Little Prayer

When I first read this prayer written by St. Francis of Assisi, the Italian mystic preacher, my soul fell in love with each word..I kept reading it again & again & again..I then decided to write it on a piece of paper and hang it on my Vision board. And I believe it’s worth sharing.

“Lord, Make me an Instrument of Your Peace.

Where there is hatred, let me sow love;

Where there is injury, pardon;

Where there is doubt, faith;

Where there is despair, hope;

Where there is darkness, light;

And where there is sadness, joy.

O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek

To be consoled as to console;

To be understood as to understand;

To be loved as to love;

For it is in giving that we receive;

It is in pardoning that we are pardoned;

And it is in dying that we are born to eternal light.”