Category Archives: Mind

Postponing Happiness

I’m not Happy… I’m not Happy because my life is a mess, I can’t achieve my goals, I have debts, I live from paycheck to paycheck, I eat junk food, I’m fat, I rarely exercise, I’m not progressing the way I want in my career, I have troubles in my relationships and people can’t even understand me.

I’m just not Happy living this life…

What???!! You want me to be happy Now? Are you blind? Didn’t you hear what I just said? Do you want me to be unrealistic and deceive my own self? What is good about my life to be happy about? I’m not even close to where I want to be!

If I won’t be happy now, when I will be Happy? Well, when I achieve my dreams and goals. Yes Only when I do it…Uhhh, yeah of course I have achieved some stuff before, but it’s different now..I mean now I want different things. What I used to dream of yesterday no longer serves me today…

Yes I know I thought I was going to be happy when I’ve achieved those stuff but…you know what? Even after I did, I wasn’t that happy! I expected to be happier honestly but I just wasn’t…

Oh! Do you want to say that I keep telling myself I will be happy when…….but when I’ll do it, I will not feel that content just like before?

My mind is tricking me, isn’t it? Those stuff I want to achieve will not bring me happiness on their this what you want to tell me?

There will always be something missing, yet there is always more to run after. Kind of a Mirage. An Illusion…

So linking happiness with achievement is an illusion. Happiness is independent. An independent reality. It needs no external resources to be fully experienced.

Postponing Happiness is the illusion. So it’s about taking the decision to be content and happy right now, right here!

Happiness is a Choice I shall make. A Choice I’m responsible for…


A Curse called Planning’s time for me now to admit some facts about the role of planning in my life:

Don’t get it wrong, I always loved planning stuff! Taking the time to reflect about something, putting ideas into a logical sequence, prioritizing, connecting the dots. One of the mind’s games that I really enjoy doing…but the story doesn’t end here.

I remember once in a job interview, an executive manager asked me the traditional question: What do you think your best skills are? And with a confident smile I answered: Planning. “Planning on its own is not a positive skill, unless it is translated into feasible effective actions.” That was his answer. And Reddish was the color of my face.

All goes well in the planning process (for me), but when it starts hitting the scheduling and action plan phases, my enthusiasm hits the ground! So the result is either starting acting upon the plan for a day, 2, and even a week, OR settling with watching my plan hanged on the wall just like a piece of art..and guess what with time passing by, you eventually don’t notice it anymore.

So it goes like that: Plans as long as they are written on a piece of paper look appealing. Something happens afterwards, when these written ideas need to be manifested! I always wondered about the reasons: lack of discipline, lack of belief, laziness, procrastination…although these ones seem to be more of symptoms rather than deep and true justifications.

The dilemma goes further when I start to feel trapped by my plans. I start to hate them, they just make me feel imprisoned and suck all the air out of the room. This strong feeling of being chained to whatever commitment does something to me. And achieving the plan (that I chose  for my own growth) turns out to be a struggle…

The Battles Within

If you are tired of fighting the problems that keep showing up in your life, struggling with people or circumstances..if you feel like everything you wanted is taking a different path than yours and you became stuck in a place you don’t like..if you think you’re trying your best to do the right thing and do things right yet you still hit the wall..if you started to believe that everything got out of control and that life is a bitch.. You have just fallen in the deep down hole made by your worst enemy: YOURSELF

Of course you are wondering how come? you cannot be fighting against yourself? it doesn’t make’s easier and simpler to believe that people are fighting against you, circumstances as well, or any other external factor whatever it might be. But the hard truth is: We create the battles in our minds, we distribute the roles of the play, we act accordingly until we get so drained by the play’s events that we forget it was of our own mind creation..

The game stars our minds. By nature, we tend to be happy and joyful..but with fear showing up on the surface, we become defensive and tend to protect this nature .Unconsciously, by this act of protection, we allowed fear to penetrate our hearts. It’s this fear that creates all the battles, all the fights, all the struggles. We are afraid to lose ourselves, our hopes, our dreams, our happiness. And the more we let the fear take over the steering wheel, the more our battles get bigger, stronger, harder, and tougher.

So start by admitting that YOU are your first and single battle. Then work on yourself by aligning your nature with your desires. In other words, decide upon what you want to do with your life and believe you can do it. When you believe, it becomes easy to create the habits, the tasks, and the life style that will lead you there. A burning desire and a strong belief will keep you up there defeating your inner battles against Fear and freeing yourself from its chains.

In life, you don’t get the chance to play again . It’s a one time shot! and you know within yourself that it’s not worth all these struggles.

Life is actually simple and always calls for us to enjoy its company..So don’t be fool and reject the invitation!

Thoughts & Movies

In these movies, I found intriguing thoughts that ring a bell! Let me start with:

A Beautiful Mind:

Russel Crowe or Nash might be the eccentric example of someone who over-uses his mind but actually Nash exists in almost everyone of us, when we tend to analyze too much and rationalize everything around us.

Nash: What truly is logic? Who decides reason? My quest has taken me to the physical, the metaphysical, the delusional, and back. I have made the most important discovery of my career – the most important discovery of my life. It is only in the mysterious equations of love that any logic or reason can be found…

So, the Mind is not the place where absolute truth lies. The heart is..The mind is Limited, The Heart is not..

Dr. Rosen: You can’t reason your way out of this!
Nash: Why not? Why can’t I?
Dr. Rosen: Because your mind is where the problem is in the first place!

And if the reasons of the mind sound logic, the reasons of the heart & soul sound authentic..

Alicia: How big is the universe?
Nash: Infinite.
Alicia: How do you know?
Nash: I know because all the data indicates it’s infinite.
Alicia: But it hasn’t been proven yet.
Nash: No.
Alicia: You haven’t seen it.
Nash: No.
Alicia: How do you know for sure?
Nash: I don’t, I just believe it.
Alicia: It’s the same with love I guess.

At the end, it’s all about Acceptance. There is no good for us to fight and resist back what we hate about ourselves, the good lies in our acceptance, our willingness to let go and move on..

Nash: I’ve gotten used to ignoring them and I think, as a result, they’ve kind of given up on me. I think that’s what it’s like with all our dreams and our nightmares, Martin, we’ve got to keep feeding them for them to stay alive.


Sweet November:

What I love about this movie is this Thrill Sarah shows for life, this passion, this excitement and desire to enjoy life as it is!

Sarah: I surrender all attempts to control life, yours or mine. I live for one thing, to make you happy; to live firmly and joyously in the moment.

In this line, Sarah reveals, what I consider, one of the real secrets of happiness. didn’t you notice that only when we stop trying to control everything around us that things get eventually better? and then she adds another enlightening line that invites to even a greater happiness is Living Fully in the moment, getting out of the past nutshell or slowing down the future projection in our minds..

Sarah: If I’ve learned anything it’s that you should have the people who love you, around you as long as you possibly can.

I get distracted sometimes too and forget about how important to be surrounded by people you share love with is, yet whenever you are struggling all you think about is a shoulder to lean on..



Powder is the kind of movie that may seem absurd because of the simplicity of the story but the messages behind are deep and very spiritual.

The idea of Humanity:

Donald Ripley: It has become appallingly clear that our technology has surpassed our humanity. When I look at you, I have hope that maybe one day our humanity will surpass our technology

The idea of Separation:

Powder: Inside most people there’s a feeling of being separate, separated from everything.
Linsey: And?
Powder: And they’re not. They’re part of absolutely everyone, and everything.

Mind Scribbles

If I’d scribble now, this is how the result would look like.

They say scribbling can say a lot about your mood, your personality.

When I looked at this scribble,  I instantly recognized it: it’s my mind! yes exactly this is how it looks like!! When you see it, you might think about confusion, disturbance, chaos, agitation, ambiguity..You  might also see diversity, complexity, boldness..How you see it says a lot about you too.

I’m not very fond of this scribble though, I find it too stuffed and suffocating, it remind me of driving in Cairo in the midst of the traffic jam and the breathless polluted air…

I want my scribble to reflect peace of mind. I don’t know how this will look like. It can’t be just a blank piece of paper! Maybe I’ll draw a duck, or a tree. I would love to be a tree, trees “are”, that’s all what they do, they just are, and I just want to “be”, that would lead us to another metaphysical topic which is “being”..ok next time then!

Listen to your mind

Isn’t it common when suddenly ideas pop up in ur head, whispering in ur ears “look for what you really want, fight for it, don’t let yourself go, go after your aspirations”…
These ideas turn your thoughts upside down for a while…Then, You try to find solutions, alternatives, you really try to build a high wall of high hopes…
But very soon you get back to your mind, uncertainty and probability are hard to be manipulated…You have to accept what you do no matter what! But u also have to look around and fulfill ur dreams…It’s complicated.