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Postponing Happiness

I’m not Happy… I’m not Happy because my life is a mess, I can’t achieve my goals, I have debts, I live from paycheck to paycheck, I eat junk food, I’m fat, I rarely exercise, I’m not progressing the way I want in my career, I have troubles in my relationships and people can’t even understand me.

I’m just not Happy living this life…

What???!! You want me to be happy Now? Are you blind? Didn’t you hear what I just said? Do you want me to be unrealistic and deceive my own self? What is good about my life to be happy about? I’m not even close to where I want to be!

If I won’t be happy now, when I will be Happy? Well, when I achieve my dreams and goals. Yes Only when I do it…Uhhh, yeah of course I have achieved some stuff before, but it’s different now..I mean now I want different things. What I used to dream of yesterday no longer serves me today…

Yes I know I thought I was going to be happy when I’ve achieved those stuff but…you know what? Even after I did, I wasn’t that happy! I expected to be happier honestly but I just wasn’t…

Oh! Do you want to say that I keep telling myself I will be happy when…….but when I’ll do it, I will not feel that content just like before?

My mind is tricking me, isn’t it? Those stuff I want to achieve will not bring me happiness on their own..is this what you want to tell me?

There will always be something missing, yet there is always more to run after. Kind of a Mirage. An Illusion…

So linking happiness with achievement is an illusion. Happiness is independent. An independent reality. It needs no external resources to be fully experienced.

Postponing Happiness is the illusion. So it’s about taking the decision to be content and happy right now, right here!

Happiness is a Choice I shall make. A Choice I’m responsible for…


Socrates’ Secret

“The secret of happiness, you see, is not found in seeking more, but in developing the capacity to enjoy less.” – Socrates

Huh?

Do you want to tell me that during all these years where we have been chasing our desires, listing our endless goals, starving to get more & more of “stuff” in our lives, and jumping from one dream to another…all of that was a big fat illusion?

Do you want to tell me that the more we achieve, the more we feel unhappy? Do you want to say that once we get what we want, we start looking for the next to-do thing in our list? and that we don’t even dedicate the time to enjoy what we have just achieved?

Do you want to tell me that we stop our joy until we get what we want, yet once we do we find out that we are still unhappy? that we neither enjoy the journey nor the results?

Do you want to tell me that we are like rats in a race? thriving to get to the “Finish” point, while all we do is starting all over again from where we began?

Do you want to tell me that the paradigms of “Doing More” and “Getting More” that the modern societies planted in our minds, fed it through their Education and Economical systems are deceptive and misleading?

Four Hundred years BC you’ve revealed this to the human race…400 years BC!!!

Have we been manipulated? Or have we contributed to our own manipulation?

The Truth is un-arguable Socrates…We cannot hit ourselves against it because if we do we will fall…


Journey of an Elusive Mind

August 2008..The journey began: I learnt that I can actually achieve my desires, that I can have the life of my dreams and that whenever there’s a will, there’s a way..I honestly never thought this was possible. For 23 years, I considered life as nothing but a series of progressive steps wherein we achieve something not necessarily related to what we love, or what we care about..we just shoot the ball to get the right score that will allow us to move to the next stage.

And then Somehow it was time for me to realize how narrow my view of life was..Taking into consideration the right messages and reflecting about the signs I kept receiving, Reality started to take another shape. I was able to see gradually everything differently..I realized how vital to have a dream is, how important to believe in something, to hold on to it, a big picture, a Purpose. And then a series of revelations, Aha-Moments, enlightenment preceded.

Seeking Answers for many questions was the journey I found myself in.

Three years have passed, yes, many answers got revealed. Yet more questions are curving their way into my head.

Many events happened to me, many life time experiences got me closer to myself and to the “source”.The Big picture is getting clearer day after day yet I know the journey is still in its very beginning.

And the biggest part of the story I will tell is with my friend and foe: Mr. Elusive Mind.


Fear Not…

Fear Not FEAR…just like in a dream you believe everything is real then once awake you realize it’s no longer there. Fear is very alike. When you are afraid, you think threatening fearful thoughts and once you overcome them, you realize how illusionary they were. Fear was there. It existed just like a small flame shaking in the winds. But in your mind you saw it invincible and to intensify the picture you started feeding it  with extra frightening thoughts. Until reality & illusion united. They formed a strong “invincible” alley. You are trapped now. And You suffer from your own perceptions. You then decide not to suffer anymore. You decide to overcome your fears. You can do it! And you actually do it..this is when you start realizing how fear fooled you or maybe you fooled yourself!

The thing is even if Fear is there, do not fear it. It is part of who we are, part of our human imperfections. Accepting it as part of the process will help you break the “invincible” picture your mind draws.

At the end of your life, you don’t want to regret not doing what you wanted to do out of fear…


Revelations

This morning, I heard the voice again, not the voice of the mind, the other one, that comes from deep within..This is the voice that talked to me a few months ago and told me a confession that appeared to be true today..This voice is incredibly authentic when it starts talking and it is also filled with love and honesty. I can sense its transparency..What is weird about it is that, unlike the voice of the mind, it doesn’t need external justifications or analysis, it just says what it knows. I tried to corner it to know the source of its knowledge, it didn’t seem to be bothered by my question though! and it answered simply and truthfully: I just know…What a great confidence and groundedness this voice had! When my imaginative mind tried to give it a face or a shape, it appeared to be like an old Indian guru sitting comfortably in his meditative reflective position with a big fat smile on his face…

Back to what it told me today, it hit me with a simple but powerful reality: What if all the struggle you have been through is part of your learning process? What if it’s exactly what you need to go through to eventually get what you are aspiring for? What if all these hardships are nothing but the door steps to your dreams?

Normally this crap wouldn’t make sense..but it did! yes it did, it made perfect sense and presented the KEY to the persecutor “me” that was heavily active throwing me accusations and judging me all the time..This naive but wordly-wise, simple but complex insinuation revealed the big picture to me…the picture that I was trying to figure out lost between its many small pieces.

Then What?

Simply this small self-revelation is inviting me to accept what is, embrace it, and always look beyond…