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My thoughts about Meditation

A few years ago, for me the word “meditation” was for those spiritual gurus living in their own bubble far from the real world.

But the universe had other plans for me, opening the door for a self discovery path. This is when I started to realize how shallow my judgments were. My thoughts about meditation were completely distorted. Enjoying a quiet mind was the simple message from this practice. And how a quiet mind can enhance the quality of your life.

So I found myself interested in practicing this exercise that would bring me peace of mind. Starting with 5 minutes of sitting in a quiet room with soothing music in the background, the experience was not so bad! Actually the mind didn’t like it that much, but something deeper (I don’t know what to call it) was enjoying the process…
One year later I got introduced to Transcendental Meditation. A program of 20 minutes practiced twice per day. I gladly welcomed it and was lucky to have gone through deep states of pure quietness. Yet the mind didn’t appear to have been enjoying as such and declared WAR. In this particular time I was  facing some problems in my relationship where anxiety and stress took the leading roles. Meditating started to become a painful process where feelings of resistance and fear were exaggerated. Hiding away was my reaction, and I stopped meditating.

I released my mind struggle yet that “thing” inside of me that enjoyed the whole experience the very 1st time I tried it didn’t disappear. Actually it started to resonate in my heart begging me to give it another shot.

Several months passed by with me ignoring the voice. However I knew I’d come back. And I did. And it got better.

The secret was simply letting go off all my expectations, embracing the experience as it is even with the mind chatter. Today I meditate once per day for 20 minutes. And it feels good.

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Postponing Happiness

I’m not Happy… I’m not Happy because my life is a mess, I can’t achieve my goals, I have debts, I live from paycheck to paycheck, I eat junk food, I’m fat, I rarely exercise, I’m not progressing the way I want in my career, I have troubles in my relationships and people can’t even understand me.

I’m just not Happy living this life…

What???!! You want me to be happy Now? Are you blind? Didn’t you hear what I just said? Do you want me to be unrealistic and deceive my own self? What is good about my life to be happy about? I’m not even close to where I want to be!

If I won’t be happy now, when I will be Happy? Well, when I achieve my dreams and goals. Yes Only when I do it…Uhhh, yeah of course I have achieved some stuff before, but it’s different now..I mean now I want different things. What I used to dream of yesterday no longer serves me today…

Yes I know I thought I was going to be happy when I’ve achieved those stuff but…you know what? Even after I did, I wasn’t that happy! I expected to be happier honestly but I just wasn’t…

Oh! Do you want to say that I keep telling myself I will be happy when…….but when I’ll do it, I will not feel that content just like before?

My mind is tricking me, isn’t it? Those stuff I want to achieve will not bring me happiness on their own..is this what you want to tell me?

There will always be something missing, yet there is always more to run after. Kind of a Mirage. An Illusion…

So linking happiness with achievement is an illusion. Happiness is independent. An independent reality. It needs no external resources to be fully experienced.

Postponing Happiness is the illusion. So it’s about taking the decision to be content and happy right now, right here!

Happiness is a Choice I shall make. A Choice I’m responsible for…


The Questions Are Mine

These are not questions. Call them interrogative statements of wonder, inspection, puzzlement..

– Why do we struggle to see the picture clear?

– Why can’t we clearly listen to the truth echoing in our hearts?

– Why don’t we trust the voices of our instincts?

– Why don’t we act upon our true beliefs?

– Why do we choose our own stagnation while we strive for real change?

– Why do we hold on to our griefs while all we want is to be happy?

– Why don’t we change what we keep condemning and criticizing?

– Why don’t we get out of our own buble and envy those who do?

– Why do we ignore the heart when it cries out to be heard?

– Why do we ignore the soul when it burns to be freely expressed?

– Why do we ignore the body when it keeps sending us signals of exhaustion?

The Answers are yours…


The Battles Within

If you are tired of fighting the problems that keep showing up in your life, struggling with people or circumstances..if you feel like everything you wanted is taking a different path than yours and you became stuck in a place you don’t like..if you think you’re trying your best to do the right thing and do things right yet you still hit the wall..if you started to believe that everything got out of control and that life is a bitch.. You have just fallen in the deep down hole made by your worst enemy: YOURSELF

Of course you are wondering how come? you cannot be fighting against yourself? it doesn’t make sense..it’s easier and simpler to believe that people are fighting against you, circumstances as well, or any other external factor whatever it might be. But the hard truth is: We create the battles in our minds, we distribute the roles of the play, we act accordingly until we get so drained by the play’s events that we forget it was of our own mind creation..

The game stars within..here..in our minds. By nature, we tend to be happy and joyful..but with fear showing up on the surface, we become defensive and tend to protect this nature .Unconsciously, by this act of protection, we allowed fear to penetrate our hearts. It’s this fear that creates all the battles, all the fights, all the struggles. We are afraid to lose ourselves, our hopes, our dreams, our happiness. And the more we let the fear take over the steering wheel, the more our battles get bigger, stronger, harder, and tougher.

So start by admitting that YOU are your first and single battle. Then work on yourself by aligning your nature with your desires. In other words, decide upon what you want to do with your life and believe you can do it. When you believe, it becomes easy to create the habits, the tasks, and the life style that will lead you there. A burning desire and a strong belief will keep you up there defeating your inner battles against Fear and freeing yourself from its chains.

In life, you don’t get the chance to play again . It’s a one time shot! and you know within yourself that it’s not worth all these struggles.

Life is actually simple and always calls for us to enjoy its company..So don’t be fool and reject the invitation!


Journey of an Elusive Mind

August 2008..The journey began: I learnt that I can actually achieve my desires, that I can have the life of my dreams and that whenever there’s a will, there’s a way..I honestly never thought this was possible. For 23 years, I considered life as nothing but a series of progressive steps wherein we achieve something not necessarily related to what we love, or what we care about..we just shoot the ball to get the right score that will allow us to move to the next stage.

And then Somehow it was time for me to realize how narrow my view of life was..Taking into consideration the right messages and reflecting about the signs I kept receiving, Reality started to take another shape. I was able to see gradually everything differently..I realized how vital to have a dream is, how important to believe in something, to hold on to it, a big picture, a Purpose. And then a series of revelations, Aha-Moments, enlightenment preceded.

Seeking Answers for many questions was the journey I found myself in.

Three years have passed, yes, many answers got revealed. Yet more questions are curving their way into my head.

Many events happened to me, many life time experiences got me closer to myself and to the “source”.The Big picture is getting clearer day after day yet I know the journey is still in its very beginning.

And the biggest part of the story I will tell is with my friend and foe: Mr. Elusive Mind.


Listen to your mind

Isn’t it common when suddenly ideas pop up in ur head, whispering in ur ears “look for what you really want, fight for it, don’t let yourself go, go after your aspirations”…
These ideas turn your thoughts upside down for a while…Then, You try to find solutions, alternatives, you really try to build a high wall of high hopes…
But very soon you get back to your mind, uncertainty and probability are hard to be manipulated…You have to accept what you do no matter what! But u also have to look around and fulfill ur dreams…It’s complicated.